last night before watch narnia (i loved it by the way) liz, mike, and i were sharing some of our favorite film clips with each other(from the movies i own so there wasn't a great selection of films). their choices were profound, depthful, and artistic. mine were...not, well the second one wasn't. in thinking about what i love about film and the films i love, i realize that what i connect with most in films are relationships, usually romantic relationships. when one person is truly honoring the other and there is something beyond sex in their connection. it seems to me that there is a way in which only a lover can call out and honor something so deeply hidden in you. i think this is connected to how we see God too. that in a good, honoring, and loving relationship one's lover is the image bearer of relationship with God as lover. the lover illumanates your heart's deepest cry, and God as lover not only illumanates the heart's cry but calls it to desire something more than we can even imagine.
i was thinking alot about mike's second clip from "fight club" today as i spent FIVE hours getting my hair colored. it was suppose to take three. foolishly i had not taken any of my reading with me so i was stuck with a trashy gossip rag to read while my color set. after about three minutes of reading about jo-lo, angelia/brad, and britney/kevin i was kicking my self for not bringing any theology, or psych for that matter. i would have been happier with one of roy's articles that put me to sleep over this. why, do so many people care and read this stuff? not only is it mindless but it defiles and degrates the people who it is writen about. i mean how many people's relationships could survive that kind of microscopic scouring? it's like reality tv, why? why the hell do we need "scripted" reality with pretty people who just want to harm and fuck each other?
is this what we are being given? an empty desire for popularity that is intrinsically bound in violence and destruction of the other. how can we hope to achieve such empty seats of glory? and do we really want to be bound by the world of cross marketing where nothing is holy enough to not be used as a marketing ploy. when will our need for "reality" lead us to the feet of the other and back into our own world of mediocrity, where we will finally find life, honor, connection, hope, God and love? i hope that we will come to a point where we can no longer stomach the empty unfullfilling junk food, and reach again for the real nourishing meat of relationship.