i feel the chaos of so many things running through my head today...the best part is that i am stuck in class all day. there are things at home that hit mass chaos yesterday morning, relationship things that have been building for the last week, and questions of what my place is in the midst of artistic passion and church?
and i find my self in the calm eye of the storm...i think something has changed in my heart. i no longer feel the chaos in such a drowning sort of way. in my usual pattern of life when faced with all of this, i would feel like i was in the midst of churning seas trying desperately to hold my head above water while also fighting against the mounting fear. now days i just feel a bit off kilter like walking in a hard wind where you can still move it just takes more effort.