i keep wondering why men are such jerks. no that's not it, rather it is that i wonder why when i have a bad interaction with a man i assume that it is some how my fault. why do i immediately take the blame for everything. i know that at least in part this comes from my role with in my family. but why do i take blame for things are clearly not my fault?
like when i think someone might know that i am interested in them, i instantly feel like everything is fucked and all hope is lost.
so is this the fault of the men i know or is this a issue with me or both?
i just don't know?