Thursday, April 03, 2008

long loves and other long awaited things

finally getting the chance to watch the beautiful film version of "love in the time of cholera", and in watching it i am reminded of the wonder and heart-ache i felt reading this story. marquez creates such lovely and vivid stories of humanity catching at the very essence of life. there is so much connectivity between the characters and their lives with in this epic tale.

i cannot imagine being able to love for as long as the main character does in this story does 51 years of love of the willingness to devote their heart to one person. i say this coming from a family of longtimers, meaning when we commit we commit to the long term, and yet even though i have loved long and hard. i still could not imagine loving and being so certain of my love for that long. yet, what i can imagine is having a hope and a dream for long and waiting for it to be fulfilled. as i sit now in the waiting, waiting for the fulfillment of a dream i am blown away with the anticipation and fears of this happening. if all doors open, i just might be able to live in los angeles by fall a dream of mine for the last ten years. the possiblity of this dream becoming reality is for me the same as falling in love and finally finding out that the man i love love's me as well. there is a beauty to a long awaited hope coming as a possiblity.

so like a lover waiting on her beloved i wait for my dream to become alive and living appearing in front of me.

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