Sunday, November 21, 2010

Dying to self...(NFTPL #11)

So the church I am currently going to here in Los Angeles is all about service, but not in a overwhelming way. To them service is just the extension of grace and getting out of your self. Sometimes calls at churches to be in service can feel very guilted and pushy but that isn't how I feel with Mosaic. Tonight the sermon was about baptism and the death to self which one is called to by following God. Now I can't even count the number of times I have heard words or sermons around these topics but especially the dying to self can get very warped in how it plays out in the church.

For example when we were talking about gender in the church in my last graduate program, we spent a lot of time talking about the fact that women or other people who have no voice, power or position with in certain communities of believers (outside of the expectation of them serving others) are told specifically when they seek to step into greater things God has for them are told that they must "die to themselves" essence your calling and gifting is in valid a spiritual "woman get your ass back in the kitchen and make me some food". Or it is the person who has given so much of themselves with out resting and being filled up who is asked to give even more when they are bone dry.

This is not Mosaic's approach, and every time I hear one of the pastors encourage serving others I find that my heart is spurred on in a desire to be of service. In fact I find that I want badly to be useful to others to have something to offer out of what little I have. I also find that as I seek out tiny ways I can serve each day that I feel more aware of God's little a rainbow I saw this afternoon. Just those little things that say hi & yes, I do know what I am doing and it will be ok. And as funny as it is seeing those moments and letting go has taken dying to my typical responses...which is a dying to self.

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