Saturday, March 05, 2011

running off into the desert ...(NFTPL #39)

today seems like a good day to take a vacation from life...most likely it's all the stress that's cornering me. whatever the reason there is a major part of me that wants to do something incredibly stupid and irresponsible right now, yet it's the stress talking. rilo kiley has this great line on one of the songs off "the execution of all things" that goes something like this..."i think i'll go out and embarrass myself by getting drunk and falling down in the street." there is something about that line that calls forth images or drunken nights filled with philosophical musings, laughter, great music. cigarette smoke, and being at the beach or the desert. the only thing missing on those occasions for me is a nice man to curl up with at the end of the night! so many of my best memories over the last few years have been being out with friends in a slight haze of seeing some wonderful band or hanging out eating good food drinking good wine or liquor and just being. i love those moments because the world feels so surreal and real all at once.

my heart is aching for some of that escapist space...i don't know why but for the last week and a half there has been this little hankering for a trip to the desert filled with musings and drunken quandaries. it must be a sense of homesickness or something...or my own version of wanderlust coming out. maybe it's the need for clarity which comes in those moments or the desire to have something that feels real.

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